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From home 9.30 am. Went to IMKEDA office,L license tak siap lagi. Huhh. Got IELTS brochures at British Council. Bought shoes and a cute handbag at KLCC. Met Mayo and Afiq Farhan at Kg Baru station. Waited for Azmatul Amirah and Khairun Adhniza whilst having lunch at Burger King in KL Central. Walked to the Monorail station. Arrived at Titiwangsa and walked all the way to the hospital. Already in Shahir's room by 3pm. I'm pretty sure it was the loudest yet most cheerful room in the whole hospital. Most memorable joke, CINA! Haha ini joke hanya orang yang pergi faham sebab saya taknak explain kat sini, tak baik oh :D The room was full with laughters of Shahrul Nizam,Shahrul Rizwan,Ariff Hazwan,Akmal Izaan,Arif Azharisham,Fariez Iqmal,Faris Zainal,Hanafi Ismail,Hafiz Yazid,Afiq Farhan,Luqman Azzaki,Anas Syahiran,Azam Ariffin and sapetah lagi sorry tak perasan hehe. My AzwAzhr was there too. Betul cakap you, kejap sangat, tak sabar tunggu next date :) By 5.30pm we're out of there and walking back to Titiwangsa station. Separated with Mayo and Adhniza. Went back to KL Central with Azmatul. Walked a bit more towards Sooka Sentral to Ayah's office. Tahu tahu sudah dalam bilik ;p

Here's a few photos of my visit today . Exhausted oh. But I had a great day though and pretty hard laughs and meaningful smiles :)

Damn should've taken the Cina's photo so that you guys understood the joke itself. Those who were there must be smiling just reading this :D

Amirah Mohd Nor .

Adhniza Shahir Azmatul 

The busy roads' view from Shahir's room .

Monn sleeping .

Monn medicated .

Anis Madihah .

The blood pressure machine thingy

and Mayo :)

Arif Eto . Malee Izaan . Ainul Atuk .

Well encouraged Shahir Monn .

to fuck haha

Dear Monn, my chemistry advocate :(

" Ya Allah, Kau selamatkanlah sahabatku Ahmad Shahir bin Mohamad. Kau permudahkanlah urusannya dan ringankanlah bebannya. Amiiin. "

Oh dear. My heartbeat races fast enough, I could cry. I could only istighfar when I first got Shahrul Nizam's text on the sad news. It took me awhile to reply,to digest what he tells me. Ahmad Shahir is admitted to Hospital Tawakal and is undergoing an operation on his right leg and thigh tonight? Cause of injury: motorcycle accident.

Ya Allah, Monn. My strong continuous prayers are with you okay? Hopefully you're okay and you'll be fine in no time. 

I'll be there** visiting you with Amirah Mohd Nor,Raja Azmatul,Khairun Adhniza and Afiq Farhan as well as the whole batch, if you don't mind. Haha. Yeah, we do care. And those who can't are bounded with other obligations but their prayers are with you, you know? May Allah bless you and may this incident bring hikmah and kesedaran to all . 

**This means of my confirmation to go tomorrow is still uncertain cause... well, relatively, my phone bills just arrived this evening,together with a bunch of lectures. Not enough from my dad, then Mummy sambung. Ya Allah. Tahan je laaa. But next time try to control cause malas nak go through lagi. THANK GOD there were no itemised bill enclosed sekali. Kalau tak kantoi lahhh all those late night/all night calls. HAHA. *pheww!*

Tapi yang paling kantoi mengtopupkan orang. Shit. Cover je lah with nama anyone. Nasib baik lepas. About tomorrow, I dah apply permohonan. After explaining with details,compromisation,bargains,buts and ifs,smile smile,complete innocence and cuteness, Ayah says,

"Early in the morning I want you to settle your driving class schedule at the IMKEDA office. Next I want you to decide on IELTS and find out through British Council. This time I'm not offering, I want you to go for it. I'll discuss it with Mummy and I'll think about it. I let you know if you can go tomorrow. Okay? Dah. Tidur. Assalamualaikum."

Yeap. He's stern and skema to be exact. Yet tolerable. Compared to Mummy. Hopefully he doesn't objects tomorrow. I'll wake up early and settle my housechores pronto in full capacity. For sure no reason to say no kan? Fingers crossed :)

Mayo, I know you're reading this dengan khusyuk haha. Now you know and understand about tomorrow kan? Kalau I tak cerita pun u dah paham pun,I'm sure. So pray for me tau and GOOD NIGHT BABE ;)

Cik Mira & Cik CamillaTap.

This one's for you guys. Nak updates kan? So padan muka baca ini....

... "How was My Day Today" :D

So I woke up at 6.42am to be exact as I felt my phone vibrate and don't ask who. Lutfil starts to fuss about his shorts' whereabouts as he excitingly siap siap to go to Titiwangsa for riadah mesra and bola session with Ayah and Nurin while my lovely sisters Salina and Batrisyia gets ready for their extra classes (PMR SPM kan..)
I did a load of laundry and logged in Facebook kejap. Hehe. Perkara wajib seharian aite? Then sidai baju and breakfast as usual. Kemas dapur,sweep the floor,tidy rooms bla bla bla.


Then Mummy gets a phone call. Oh it was Aunty Faridah. The ma'am of our family friend. She invited us for lunch at their place. So we did. Makan steamboat wo. Sedap and yeah, I did tambah :) Ada this amazing choc cheese cake sedap sial. The whole family was there. Uncle Jant,Aunty Faridah,Kak Hannah and her husband Abg Mett,Kak Deehann,Abg Zariel and BN. Family Aunty Siti pun ada. Lutfil was having fun playing with the crowd of boys cause at home he tends to play alone since he has no brothers instead has four very feminine sisters. Nak buat macammana kan? I enjoyed mengusha Baby Myiesha too. Cute sangat. I like her dress. Oh yeah. She's Kak Hannah and Abg Mett's baby princess. Comel gila :)


When we came back home, tengok VCD cerita Pisau Cukur yang baru dibeli. Best jugalah cerita dia. I like Maya Karin,she's pretty. Movie macam ni memang menjadi lah watak Si Fazura tu. Oh my Gucci, Aaron Aziz is divine :D Handsome gila weyh. The whole petang was scorching hot so on aircond and tidur for the rest of the petang :)


Bangun bangun angkat baju and lipat. Yeah. Routine. Suddenly Ayah announces that we're having dinner out.
Secret Recipe Jusco Alpha Angle Wangsa Maju. I had frosty lemon tea and chicken cordon bleu. Jalan jalan in MPH. Spotted a book I'll grab later. Cecila Ahern weyh! Baru kot. "The Book of Tomorrow". Tak sabar to get my hands on 'em. In the car tadi melalak lalak lagu Kris Dayanti dengan Tia hahaha. Best best.


Now I'm safely home and in front of the lappy, still in my jeans and long sleeve shirt, with Facebook logged in. I just checked my notifications. Cik Mira and Cik Tap just penuhkan my Wall dengan borak borak mereka HAHA. Thanks Gemm for updating blog batch as I requested. Haha. Nanti post lagi tau. As for Tap, expert blogger, just keep on doing what you're doing babe :)


*tenenet tenenet*
"New Message Received"
Whoops. I'd better reply this one . Later ;)

Haduiii .

I'm wound up with plannings and outings and routines and friends and boyfriend and parents and their controls. Okay I'm starting to not make any sense. Cakap pun campur campur. Ni semua otak punya pasal. Tangan pun menaip mengikut kata hati dan rentak irama lagu yang bermain di telinga ku. Why am I writing in malay? Oh whatever. I just need to spill whatever I'm thinking right now for the flow of maintained emotions and devotions to an organised life. Organised? Not many of my jobless friends wake up at 6 every morning and mandi before 9am daily. Do they make the laundry, as in basuh sidai and lipat, altogether at least 2 loads each day? Do they sweep floors everyday and make the dishes every each meal? I DON'T FREAKING THINK SO. So life like so considered organised? More like programmised. I know you're going "huhh?"




Being jobless. This isn't whining or complaining. I won't deny that sometimes I enjoy doing these as I won't have to endure boreness all the time. However, I do have to suffer consequences like panic attacks when it rains suddenly, back aches after mopping the floors, rough hands due to constant dishwashing, skin burn after sidai baju, less sleep and lesser hangout time. But at the end of the month, I get to enjoy my unemployment benefits. Hehe. And a bit of simpathy for not hanging out like normal SPM leavers. So I'll get green light when my face has this stay-at-home-flush look. Means, "she needs to go out a bit".




Parental control. You've heard of it. Even my notebook has a time restriction of usage. Oh yeah. My dad has the main user password so he 'restricts' me from logging in after midnight till 9am. What fucking rubbish is that? However I have to contain myself to it cause he thinks being online too much would damage my eyesight,take away my time and has explicit contents that has no filtration. He's forgotten I'm 18. And I already know stuff before I'm  18 and without internet :)




I think I'm done talking. That felt good to be let out. Okay bye :)

Shoutouts :)

Okay. This is how it works. Here's a few messages that I'd like to convey to a few of my loved ones,regardless they read 'em or not. But most of them would, I can tell. Because they just would. At the end of the message is a song dedication to the subject at the moment. For those who are from the third perspective,don't expect to understand what I'm trying to deliver. It's meant for them. By all means, this is how I tell them without telling them. Isn't that why everyone blogs publicly yet writes about anonymous personas? 

Of course you're first. You're on my mind all week. I want you back. The old you. No, I want us back. Do I want to kick your bf's sorry ass? Hell yeah I do. Nothing cant change what happened and so could the old times. But I hope things would brighten up and be as they were again. I just miss you, okay? :(


Here Without You - 3 Doors Down

No,doesnt mean you're any less important eventhough you come second. I just need to write about her first. Anyways, I love our discussion today. It was mature,agreeable and definitely assuring. Now I know.. 

Oh okay nanti I belajar masak sedap sedap for you, you tak sabar kan? HAHA.

Thank you and I love you too :)

Back At One - Shayne Ward

Can I ask for a greater friend than you? I never had anyone that I can talk with on anything and everything before I met you. I'm glad we crossed our paths and be close ever since. Don't go anywhere okay? I can't afford to lose a friend like you. Org atas ni baca neh mampus I haha. But you know what's going on and we both agree to let time decide kan? :)


If I Let You Go - Westlife

As for you, missy. Do take care of yourself. I'm not worried bout you,I'm worried what others would do to you. I'm not advising,I'm asking you to pretty please look after yourself. Cheer up and keep your chin up,babe. Life is a rollercoaster,remember? My shoulder is well reserved for you kalau you nak. Yeah,I'm strong and you ain't heavy :)

Keep Holding On - Avril Lavigne

Dear long lost friend who I've found again,
I'm confused and dumbfounded to be left with your puzzling remarks and no reply for explaination. Yes,I am different. I'm all gronw-up, you see. I'm not the 15 year-old girl you once met. I'm eighteen now, dear. Time has passed and changes could be major so deal with it. How come you would distant yourslef when I only just got you back? What happen to "never lose touch ever again"? I guess I'm not the only one who changes after all.


What Do You Want From Me - Adam Lambert

My good friend who's always been there and comforting to me. I still feel guilty about bailing you hari tu. I'm terribly sorry and I'll make it up to you. I'm trying to find a date for us to hang out and still looking. Hm. I owe you a day and if I lose track, remind me tau sayang. I miss spending time with ya!

Hotel Room Service  No Sleep Tonight - The Faders (taktau apa connection dia,biarlah HAHA)








I don't know how to start. We never spoke since then. We texted right after school ends. When I came back from Jeddah you're going back to your hometown. All I manage to convey are my regards. I just hope you know how sorry I am. Tried chatting at Facebook pun you refused,nampak sangat you aren't ready to forgive. Then fine. I'm done apologising :(


Sorry Seems To Be The Hardest Word - Blue ft. Elton John

I'm not sure if I still have any left to say to you. You're a heartbreaker like no other. And yeah, I'm fucking glad I gave you a damned reason to leave me. If not, I wouldn't know what a jerk you actually are.

"I'm afraid I have to break those promises..."

Those were your words,dammit. It hurts and haunts me that it still lingers in my head now. So this is why now I hate promises and can't believe in them from anyone. Not even from myself. Oh yeah, a dike like you can make an impact on someone's life. Which will soon come back to yours. Good luck & bon voyage,brother.

          All-American Rejects - Gives You Hell 

Happy Birthday Babe :)

AMIRAH AHMAD

is officially 18 years of age, TODAY! :D

[psst! tengok muka blurr dia dalam gambar ni HAHA]

May Allah grants you happiness with beautiful and meaningful blessings in life.

I wish you life longevity,best of health,loyalty of and with Fakhrulwafi Mohd Rosli,more fun ahead and success in everything.

Like I said, things may not seem like it used to, but we will always have each other in time of need and all the memories we created and shared.

I LOVE YOU, you know that. Family Forever :)

Have a great one.

xoxo

Wishing you . . .

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR :)

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY <3

The Day I Felt Eighteen :)

WARNING: This is very detailed and you might get bored. However I love writing and I hope you love reading. Thank you :)

So my day started with Iced Mocha Caramel and Egg Cheese Sandwich at Dunkin Donuts KLCC...Along with four guys,three mugs of hot drinks and a box of doughnuts in front of me. Pergh. Arif A,Izaan Azizan,Irfan Kent and Shahrul R.

I bumped into them in the LRT earlier so why not keep each other company and have breakfast kan? So we did. They were chatting away and I listened. Then Mayo arrived.

Percy Jackson and the Olympians - The Lightning Thief was AMAZING. Only then I recapped the Greek Gods,Hercules and stuff. Zeus,Haedes,Poseidon,demigods? Cool myths. I love Uma Thurman's appearance. The Satyr was funny and Percy Jackson/Logan Lerman is CUTE. Hehe.

Watched this with Mayo and we had a few laughs. It was a bit too loud and a bit too cold. Very weak signals on our phone but despite all that, the movie was worth it :)

On our way heading to Pavillion,we stopped by Memory Lane to grab a card and a gift upon meeting Ruzaini. It's his birthday so why not give him something. Lagipun, Mayo has an affection for him so she doesn't want to greet him empty-handed. I totally agree. Mayo gave me a friendship wallet card. THANK YOU ! but you forgot to sign it, nevertheless I'd always remember who and when the card is from :)

Upon arriving Pavillion, we went straight to the cinemas to wait for Ruzaini. There were a pack of boys we know so we didn't plan to bump into them but alas met Ruzaini and left for Studio R. Mayo's shoes was hurting her so we grabbed a cute pink slip-ons and she's in comfy travelling again.

Had lunch at Dome. Had pasta and Mayo had wedges and mushroom soup. Kak Laila,Mayo's big sis stopped by. Dah lama havent seen her. She was with her boyfie,Abg Azurin. We chatted and chatted and chatted more. I had so many to catch up and and she has plenty to update me. Dah lame tak borak macam tu. Didnt feel like Dome at all, macam kat dorm adalah ;)

Around 3-ish, we were already crossing roads heading Bukit Bintang area. Had fun kat BB Bistro ;) We left light-headedly back to Pavillion and the ladies' room was our first stop. It was already 5 something so we walked back to KLCC. My heart was thumping hard cause Ayah's waiting for me at KL Sentral and I'm still in KLCC!

However I made it anyways to Ayah's office on time. Pheww!

Conclusion. Tiring but fun. Exhausting but worth it.

No AzwAzhr but there's Amirah Mohd Nor :)

Surprise Surprise!

Why is the title 'surprise,surprise'?

It should be "SHOCKING,SHOCKING"!

And so I held my breath and skipped downstairs after watching Glee while my sisters, Salina's on the phone,Tia's ironing her school unis,Nurin's asleep and brother Lutfil was playing Runescape, towards my parents who were chitchatting and having coffee.

And?

Oh I wanted to go for the 'suddenly-joining-in-the-conversation-then-pops-out-can-I-go-out-question' tactic. But it'll be more heartbreaking to handle if I get a no. Say I might as well just ask directly anyways.

So I did.

"It has been 2weeks you tak keluar. So okaylahh. Where to?"

I didnt even have to beg.

"Okay then. Be home by 4.30"

It was too risky to question and negotiate on that either cause I dont wanna loose the kesianla-dia-lama-tak-keluar mood on them. So I said yeay and called him to ask he's permission pulak.

Only then I got to know that he decides to go out jugak the next day with his guy friends. Konon kononnya, "Eh you keluar jugak esok? Nant kite jumpa lah kat mane mane". Nanti buat buat terserempak padahal he was following me in case ada laki lain. HAHA.

I cant wait to lepak lepak with Moy esok. It's been awhile tak jumpa. She's gonna think I literally stuffed myself! After two months badan naik gila. Haha. Nak potong rambut, but Moy trimmed hers recently so takkan nak bore her kat saloon tu. I guess tunggu Salina cuti then or I'll go with him on our next date hehe ;)

So nak tengok bola jap then wait for him to text then off to bed.

Go LIVERPOOL!! Come on Torres,Gerard... you can do it sayangs :)

Bye bloggie :)

I Can't Wait! :D

I am SO looking forward to this movie. Not only because it has Taylor Swift and Taylor Lautner in it, it's because I just love movies with variations of intertwining situations in one movie. Malay movies like Cinta or Sepi has this kind of plot or style. It features the perspective or differentiation in between multiple ages. Plus it's romantic! I hope I can watch it with my boyfriend; present or future. With girlfriends pun tak salah kan? :)

The director of this flick is Gary Marshall.

This movie stars Julia Roberts,Bradley Cooper,Jessica Biel,Jamie Foxx,Ashton Kutcher,Patrick Dempsey,Eric Dane,Emma Roberts,Carter Jenkins,Taylor Lautner,Taylor Swift,Jessica Alba,Anne Hathaway,Jennifer Garner,Queen Latifah,Topher Grace,Joe Jonas ( as the voice of Jessica Alba's dog haha! ).

It's due to be released in February 2010 :)

A Memorable... Test?

The test I'm referring to is the computer test on the road legals which I've to take in order to obtain L license. It was promised to the students that it'll take only 45minutes, or less, to sit for the exams. Or so I thought.

"Datang sini sebelum pukul 9pagi ye dikk.."

So 8.30am I was already on the roads heading IMKEDA Centre in AU3,Ampang. My heartbeat was racing cause I didnt think I did much revision. Huh.

"Senang je, serious. Whatever you heard during the ceramah was enough."

"Sambil korek hidung pun boleh jawab."

"Bace soalan betul betul tau."

"Semua orang lulus, mesti kacang punye lah."

These remarks DONT calm me down. It's freaking me out thinking what will become of me if I fail! My friends would ridicule me to death! And my pocket money will be RM40 short :(

As I reach there, I got my book out and reread. Yeah, RE- read. Haha skema.

Saw Arep. He's waiting for his turn to practise driving.

Was texting Ilani and you-know-who. He woke early just to bagi semangat. Boyfriend TERBAIK :)

It was already 9.50am and all of us were still waiting around.

Sedar sedar I'm in a van with another 9 persons and arriving someplace somewhere. Whoa.

The noisy giliran board showed 024. And my turn was 056. Ugh. This is torturous, I thought.

It's 10.20am and I havent sat for the bloody test. Oh get on with it, shit. Huh.

So I passed. Big deal. Memang tak susah pun. But I scored 45/50, which my friends scored 47 or 48. Dont they have anything else to generate brain cells for? I've like world issues to think of. As if those top-scorers have only road legals lingering their minds.

When I walked in, there's this big signage showing NO roundnecks; only collars for men, NO shorts; skirts or pants, NO jamban slippers and NO spaghetti straps either. It's suppose to be some kind of ethic. So it's clearly understood and by far respectable to me.

I am dumbfounded to observe the government servants who work in the office. Mak aih, skirt short habis. High heels 5inches kot. Makeup setebal tebal, kalah Tyra Banks. Sign kat luar tadi boleh dispense and my respect of the ethics pun dah disperse! Tu baru imej, dahla garang hell. Rude. Snobbish. Never make eye contact and layan orang macam dia buat kerja free, padahal everyone there paid big buffalos for the stupid test! Macam la bagus sangat. Nenek aku pun lagi cun and polite. Buat rosak mood orang pagi pagi je. Damn it.

Roslyn,Nurul Iman,Tengku Farhanah and I were at Al-Malek. Yes,kedai mamak. Atas meja there's an empty 100Plus can,4 glasses that were before filled with teh ais(mine and Roslyn's) and 2 steel trays that was served as thosai disguised as roti canai. Huh.

Cukuplah myeg workers tu celaka. Now PakCik Imkeda is 3 hours late?? Adoyai, what kind of a bad day are we stuck in? Iqbal called the pakcik again and hence he answers,"Korang balik sendirilahh..". Memang fucked up. Grrr.

So after Iman's mum picked her up,Farhanah's brother came to the rescue and offered to send us to Imkeda Center balik. We booked our next session instead of complaining and exploding cause we run out of enthusiasm for self-defense. Malassss nak layan. Huh. That's my fourth sigh.

Nevertheless, I'm very grateful that I have Roslyn,Iqbal,Iman and Farhanah to fill my day with laughter,experience-swapping,jokes and opinion-sharing time rather than being aggresive,grumpy and bored to max out of the this 'challenging' day. I'm sure they feel the same :)

Thank God for Facebook and adorable pakcik that litterally gave us a chance to mingle. If we have to take it that way. Haha.

With that said, now you know my memorable test ;)

A Day at Colmar Tropicale :)

"GIRLS... Siap siap cepat. We're going out.." (jerking only his head out from behind his bedroom door)

"Where to, Ayah?" (Tia asks, likewise with the head-jerking)

"Colmar Tropicale."

"WHAT? Why the sudden plan?" (at this point, everyone came out from their rooms)

"KL ni panas lah. Let's just take a stroll and have lunch. Then balik lah."

"KL ni panas laaa..." (mimicking Ayah's expression haha)

"Ha ha." (Ayah turns around and walks away. And rolled his eyes,bhaha)

So everyone siap siap and got in the car.

We're off to Colmar Tropicale in Bukit Tinggi,Pahang :)

We had lunch at La Famme,walked around,took pictures,watched the swans and had coffee. Ice blended, i mean. Haha ;)

Nurin.

Salina.

Me.

Teeya.

Swans. The white ones.

Mummy Ayah.

Lutfil Hadi.

We went to a ranch nearby to watch horses too. These are couple horses which I took snap of. Comel!

Bonita and Bonny.

Mustang and Charlie(female lah).

So itu sajelah. It was a great Sunday. Thanks Ayah :)

Arrgghh!!

Damn it I'm not TWELVE okay? Im freaking EIGHTEEN and ought to be treated like one when I behave like one. Ugh. You people disgust me. Are you trying to bore me to death? Well dunt worry you're getting there!!! Yeah, I DONT understand all the crap you're trying to impliment to me. I'm not gonna turn out to be some kind of shit ass if I decide to have fun! Or simply LIVING if that's worth similarised to. Theoretically, I try my very best to fulfill what you need of me and be reasonable with my own freedom so I make space for you fat asses. And yet, nothing I do seems enough for you guys and those little screws up I made changes the whole thing. Negative thinkers or wrong seekers like guys should just shut the f up and get a life.. With a bit of fun and reason in it. Be a human FROM THIS ERA for a change. Be flexible and rational la weyh. I'm not a kindergarty. I'm done with school and off to college soon. Just let go of the leash and let me grow up hence face the world. At least you guys need some growing up to go through too.

As for my date, I'm sorry I left you earlier today. It was unfair of me. Good thing your guy friends were there. I do feel guilty and i'll make up to you kay sayang? Im sorry :(

Am I ?

Am I that SEPET ??
People (that i know) would come up to me and say "Hey, Sepet!". All that i'm able to do is "Ha Ha Ha" and roll my so-called-sepet eyes. As i'm squeezing myself through a crowd and as everyone's ready to say 'Cheese',the kind and overconcerned photographer stops and says, "Hey Mell, bukaklah mata sikit!" and the whole crowd roars into laughter. The picture ended up with me looking pale and disturbed. Haha. Lawak lawak. If i'm at the mall or somewhere,my friends would go "Eh pegang Mell, nanti dia hilang kang susah nak cari" when a big group of a Chinese family passes by. At my dorm, when i'm inserting my contact lenses, my dormmates would stare and says "I wonder how did that big of a lens can go through your eyelids?" Damn am i that sepet?

Am I that FAT ??
"Hey Gemuk,how's it going? Sehat nampak.." Shit. The most menyakitkan hati greeting ever. If you think you're cute saying that or you think you make me feel cute,i'd answer a big NOT. Okay? Yeah,it is true that girls do concern about their size. There,i said it. Sorry girls for revealing the thing that we deny all the time. The thing is we do care what people see of us. Fat or thin or short or dark. It has something to do with encouragement and self esteem. Just shut the fuck up and look at yourself. You're a girl too so why say things that yourself hates to hear? Huh. Tak pahamm. Walaubagaimanapun, i do admit that i love eating and i get hungry almost all the time especially when i get bored. So takdela put them at fault entirely cause i ternak all that fat myself. Hm apa apa lah. Hahaha ;D

Am I that VULNERABLE ??

"Ala kau mintak je topup dari Mell,confem dia bagi..". I kind of overheard this and it was heartbreaking. I thought when someone asks credit or any kind of financial help would mean that they're desperately in need of help. Since whatever i have on me or in my pocket is just a loan from The Creator,which i should share with those in need, i tend to give 'em away when someone asks for it. Well, they pinjam, but if they claim that they couldn't payback, i've to act "it's okay" and smile about it. But instead i had to cut on fried chicken when i'm eating at the canteen or hold myself back from having ice cream in the evenings just because i become short financially. I give because i thought i was helping others, only until a good friend of mine told me i was being taken advantage on. I put myself in self denial mode. Kesian la diorang, i thought. Only until i heard what i wrote at the first line of this stanza. How sad that people would have the cheek to manipulate someone to get what they want. I'm not taking anything back, i'm still ikhlas, tapi korang pikir sendiri la apa nak jadi ngan korang. The best slap in the face would be this remark: "Sape suruh kau baik sangat." So don't call me a bitch when i'm one in the future.

I have to learn to say NO.

I guess tu je kut. Kalau ada lagi i'll add 'em in my future posts. *Kenapa ayat cakap macam perasan ada orang follow your blogs neh?* Bhahaha ;D

Happy 18th Birthday,Wan Nur Effazleen :)

Hmm. Same laa kite! Sekarang kita dua dah lapan belas tahun.. Yang laen masih tujuh belas hahaha. Namun begitu, i'm sick of planning surprises for you dah tau tak? Geram betul. Kalau ye pun dah boleh agak buat donno je la. Lain kali malas nak struggle buat surprise for you! Grrr. Eventhough the plan backfired,we did something no one else could kan? Mia,Wafi and Ajoe habis hairan je apa kita dua buat lama2 kat tepi elevators tuu. Hahaha.

I missed you ohw. Kat Jeddah takde byk org cam Wan Effazleen neh. Teenagers dia perangai cam budak skola rendah although physical cam 20+ year olds. Scary yet annoyingg. Huh. So our birthday was a great date to meet up and celebrate since beza birthdays kita just a few hours! Haha. You look so different. Tapi tak tinggi tinggi. Bhahaha sorry. Maybe because last time i saw you with tudung on ;) Dahla pakai baju pink. Comel laa Wann ;D

Now you're a wanita berkerjaya. Topup girl. Okay la tuu. Haha. Sampai ada sorang mamat ni datang your kedai everyday just to meet you kan? Wah tu cerita first you told me when i asked "How's work?". Hm good luck with that. I know you can take care of yourself and Ajoe knows that too :) Bila pergi kerja,bawak motor tu elok elok. Tak payah laju laju, nak jadi rempit ke? Awak tu dahla kecik. Nanti motor yang bawak awak,not the other way round! Hadui,padan muka your abah marah bawak laju laju. Sape suruh? :)

Take care bestie. You know i love you <3

Happy Eighteenth Birthday, ME :)

SWEET 18 :)

I'm eighteen today. Finally legal to do anything and everything. Dear dear friends. Great friends. Thanks for those who wished me a happy one. I'm sorry but it aint. And i dont know why. A particular someone managed to make me sad even when i'm at my best mood. Well thanks a lot to you. You made my day. Last year you made my birthday the best ever. Im not sure about this year's. Yet you're granted a second chance. You always do.

Nothing fabulous being older. Birthdays are suppose to make you feel grateful that you're alive to be eighteen like me. But somehow it felt like birthdays are there to remind you that you're getting nearer to death. Shit. Oh yeah i can say that, im 18. Haha that felt good.

Let's see. My Birthday Wishlist that i posted on facebook. I got only one of the five granted. Thanks Ajoe for the birthday present also birthday wish number 3. It was sweet of you :) Yang lain hampeh. Too good to be true anyways. Thanks Hafiz Yazid for being way ahead on wishing me. Thanks AzwAzhr for being the first as it strucks 12midnight. Second would be Mayo. I love Hanni's text, "Happy Fabolous 18th Mell! Now everything you do is legal and you can watch PORN! :D" Haha. Skema ape tunggu 18 ;) And the others kat facebook. Thank you all :)

Despite the heavy weeping and dreadful boreness on my birthday, these people lighten me up. It might not be the best but the worst was bearable :)

HAPPY NEW YEAR !

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010 :)

Wah, dah tahun baruu. Time literally flies...

It scares me most when i lose track of time. Feels like i dozed off then missed a lot. Stuff i couldn't afford to in the first place. I cant believe SPM is done. School is far bygone. Friends are out of sight. And i'm blogging in my tanah air,leaving behind my boring lonely days in Jeddah; which i miss now. It's always known that you will miss something only when they're gone. Pff. Ape ape lah :)

Beyond my belief, i'm turning eighteen soon. Then everything will be LEGAL :D

Fuhh bestnyee. Haha. Batak ape,people would say. Most stuff that only eighteen year olds do pun i have done. So nothing prestigious eh? Tah la. Let's see what 2010 can bring us :)

Azam tahun baru?

Every year starts fresh. Results: crappy. Bhaha.

Well, i'll list 'em down anyway ;p

1. Lose weight ;D

2. Be prudent in my expenditure.

3. Never lose contacts with close friends.

4. Spend quality time i lost with my family for the last 5years.

5. Doing what i do best :)

Insya Allah. I hope everyone gets to fulfill their azam. A bit of hope and dream wont hurt kan?

;)