Here I Go Again

Yeah I'm back in study mode. Involvements? A test called IELTS. My parents. And myself. No scheduled courses or class. Just self-study. If you follow my skema version blog, you'll directly see my progress. And it'll wipe out the "huhh?" look you have on your face when you read 'IELTS'.




ALL OVER AGAIN? DEFINITELY IS!
What is? The sheer mind torture! Or single-wordly, STUDYing! You know the situation when you were in school when you wake up in the morning and sigh, cause it's a schoolday? And in between classes you would just grunt and wish that school would be over soon?? That feeling ended when my last Chemistry paper was collected by the invigilator. As I've said on the header, now it's all over again! Only this time without a teacher or an MPP to wake me up. There's my dad, which is surely worse, cause I can't shout at him like I can to MPPs (no offence) and I depend on worksheets,handouts,websites and the Internet to learn stuff rather than simply listening to lectures or ask anything to a teacher. Nama pun self-study -.-


So I've been training myself by reading pages of books as fast as 5minutes per page whilst understanding them thoroughly in prep of reading test. I'm currently listening to the radio more than mp3 songs to understand the spontanious dialogues in prep of listening test. I'm blogging for the prep of writing test. And the best part, I have a reason to talk more on the phone with any of my English-speaking friends in prep of speaking test! Yeay :D


It's not a test of the width of my knowledge or the height of my wisdom, just the test of the competency of my English Language. My ability to read,listen,write and speak in English. Well, is it competent enough to score a band of 7 and above? I don't know. We'll see.


Thanks for those who wishes me luck. Keep on praying and those who haven't, please do. I need your luck :)

Bilik 225,Wad 2D, Tingkat 2,Hospital Tawakal.

Home >> IMKEDA office >> British Council >> KLCC >> Kg Baru >> KL Central >> Monorail station >> Titiwangsa >> Hospital Tawakal >> Titiwangsa >> Monorail station 

>> KL Central >> Sooka Sentral >> HOME at last :D

From home 9.30 am. Went to IMKEDA office,L license tak siap lagi. Huhh. Got IELTS brochures at British Council. Bought shoes and a cute handbag at KLCC. Met Mayo and Afiq Farhan at Kg Baru station. Waited for Azmatul Amirah and Khairun Adhniza whilst having lunch at Burger King in KL Central. Walked to the Monorail station. Arrived at Titiwangsa and walked all the way to the hospital. Already in Shahir's room by 3pm. I'm pretty sure it was the loudest yet most cheerful room in the whole hospital. Most memorable joke, CINA! Haha ini joke hanya orang yang pergi faham sebab saya taknak explain kat sini, tak baik oh :D The room was full with laughters of Shahrul Nizam,Shahrul Rizwan,Ariff Hazwan,Akmal Izaan,Arif Azharisham,Fariez Iqmal,Faris Zainal,Hanafi Ismail,Hafiz Yazid,Afiq Farhan,Luqman Azzaki,Anas Syahiran,Azam Ariffin and sapetah lagi sorry tak perasan hehe. My AzwAzhr was there too. Betul cakap you, kejap sangat, tak sabar tunggu next date :) By 5.30pm we're out of there and walking back to Titiwangsa station. Separated with Mayo and Adhniza. Went back to KL Central with Azmatul. Walked a bit more towards Sooka Sentral to Ayah's office. Tahu tahu sudah dalam bilik ;p

Here's a few photos of my visit today . Exhausted oh. But I had a great day though and pretty hard laughs and meaningful smiles :)

Damn should've taken the Cina's photo so that you guys understood the joke itself. Those who were there must be smiling just reading this :D

Amirah Mohd Nor .

Adhniza Shahir Azmatul 

The busy roads' view from Shahir's room .

Monn sleeping .

Monn medicated .

Anis Madihah .

The blood pressure machine thingy

and Mayo :)

Arif Eto . Malee Izaan . Ainul Atuk .

Well encouraged Shahir Monn .

to fuck haha

Dear Monn, my chemistry advocate :(

" Ya Allah, Kau selamatkanlah sahabatku Ahmad Shahir bin Mohamad. Kau permudahkanlah urusannya dan ringankanlah bebannya. Amiiin. "

Oh dear. My heartbeat races fast enough, I could cry. I could only istighfar when I first got Shahrul Nizam's text on the sad news. It took me awhile to reply,to digest what he tells me. Ahmad Shahir is admitted to Hospital Tawakal and is undergoing an operation on his right leg and thigh tonight? Cause of injury: motorcycle accident.

Ya Allah, Monn. My strong continuous prayers are with you okay? Hopefully you're okay and you'll be fine in no time. 

I'll be there** visiting you with Amirah Mohd Nor,Raja Azmatul,Khairun Adhniza and Afiq Farhan as well as the whole batch, if you don't mind. Haha. Yeah, we do care. And those who can't are bounded with other obligations but their prayers are with you, you know? May Allah bless you and may this incident bring hikmah and kesedaran to all . 

**This means of my confirmation to go tomorrow is still uncertain cause... well, relatively, my phone bills just arrived this evening,together with a bunch of lectures. Not enough from my dad, then Mummy sambung. Ya Allah. Tahan je laaa. But next time try to control cause malas nak go through lagi. THANK GOD there were no itemised bill enclosed sekali. Kalau tak kantoi lahhh all those late night/all night calls. HAHA. *pheww!*

Tapi yang paling kantoi mengtopupkan orang. Shit. Cover je lah with nama anyone. Nasib baik lepas. About tomorrow, I dah apply permohonan. After explaining with details,compromisation,bargains,buts and ifs,smile smile,complete innocence and cuteness, Ayah says,

"Early in the morning I want you to settle your driving class schedule at the IMKEDA office. Next I want you to decide on IELTS and find out through British Council. This time I'm not offering, I want you to go for it. I'll discuss it with Mummy and I'll think about it. I let you know if you can go tomorrow. Okay? Dah. Tidur. Assalamualaikum."

Yeap. He's stern and skema to be exact. Yet tolerable. Compared to Mummy. Hopefully he doesn't objects tomorrow. I'll wake up early and settle my housechores pronto in full capacity. For sure no reason to say no kan? Fingers crossed :)

Mayo, I know you're reading this dengan khusyuk haha. Now you know and understand about tomorrow kan? Kalau I tak cerita pun u dah paham pun,I'm sure. So pray for me tau and GOOD NIGHT BABE ;)

Cik Mira & Cik CamillaTap.

This one's for you guys. Nak updates kan? So padan muka baca ini....

... "How was My Day Today" :D

So I woke up at 6.42am to be exact as I felt my phone vibrate and don't ask who. Lutfil starts to fuss about his shorts' whereabouts as he excitingly siap siap to go to Titiwangsa for riadah mesra and bola session with Ayah and Nurin while my lovely sisters Salina and Batrisyia gets ready for their extra classes (PMR SPM kan..)
I did a load of laundry and logged in Facebook kejap. Hehe. Perkara wajib seharian aite? Then sidai baju and breakfast as usual. Kemas dapur,sweep the floor,tidy rooms bla bla bla.


Then Mummy gets a phone call. Oh it was Aunty Faridah. The ma'am of our family friend. She invited us for lunch at their place. So we did. Makan steamboat wo. Sedap and yeah, I did tambah :) Ada this amazing choc cheese cake sedap sial. The whole family was there. Uncle Jant,Aunty Faridah,Kak Hannah and her husband Abg Mett,Kak Deehann,Abg Zariel and BN. Family Aunty Siti pun ada. Lutfil was having fun playing with the crowd of boys cause at home he tends to play alone since he has no brothers instead has four very feminine sisters. Nak buat macammana kan? I enjoyed mengusha Baby Myiesha too. Cute sangat. I like her dress. Oh yeah. She's Kak Hannah and Abg Mett's baby princess. Comel gila :)


When we came back home, tengok VCD cerita Pisau Cukur yang baru dibeli. Best jugalah cerita dia. I like Maya Karin,she's pretty. Movie macam ni memang menjadi lah watak Si Fazura tu. Oh my Gucci, Aaron Aziz is divine :D Handsome gila weyh. The whole petang was scorching hot so on aircond and tidur for the rest of the petang :)


Bangun bangun angkat baju and lipat. Yeah. Routine. Suddenly Ayah announces that we're having dinner out.
Secret Recipe Jusco Alpha Angle Wangsa Maju. I had frosty lemon tea and chicken cordon bleu. Jalan jalan in MPH. Spotted a book I'll grab later. Cecila Ahern weyh! Baru kot. "The Book of Tomorrow". Tak sabar to get my hands on 'em. In the car tadi melalak lalak lagu Kris Dayanti dengan Tia hahaha. Best best.


Now I'm safely home and in front of the lappy, still in my jeans and long sleeve shirt, with Facebook logged in. I just checked my notifications. Cik Mira and Cik Tap just penuhkan my Wall dengan borak borak mereka HAHA. Thanks Gemm for updating blog batch as I requested. Haha. Nanti post lagi tau. As for Tap, expert blogger, just keep on doing what you're doing babe :)


*tenenet tenenet*
"New Message Received"
Whoops. I'd better reply this one . Later ;)

Haduiii .

I'm wound up with plannings and outings and routines and friends and boyfriend and parents and their controls. Okay I'm starting to not make any sense. Cakap pun campur campur. Ni semua otak punya pasal. Tangan pun menaip mengikut kata hati dan rentak irama lagu yang bermain di telinga ku. Why am I writing in malay? Oh whatever. I just need to spill whatever I'm thinking right now for the flow of maintained emotions and devotions to an organised life. Organised? Not many of my jobless friends wake up at 6 every morning and mandi before 9am daily. Do they make the laundry, as in basuh sidai and lipat, altogether at least 2 loads each day? Do they sweep floors everyday and make the dishes every each meal? I DON'T FREAKING THINK SO. So life like so considered organised? More like programmised. I know you're going "huhh?"




Being jobless. This isn't whining or complaining. I won't deny that sometimes I enjoy doing these as I won't have to endure boreness all the time. However, I do have to suffer consequences like panic attacks when it rains suddenly, back aches after mopping the floors, rough hands due to constant dishwashing, skin burn after sidai baju, less sleep and lesser hangout time. But at the end of the month, I get to enjoy my unemployment benefits. Hehe. And a bit of simpathy for not hanging out like normal SPM leavers. So I'll get green light when my face has this stay-at-home-flush look. Means, "she needs to go out a bit".




Parental control. You've heard of it. Even my notebook has a time restriction of usage. Oh yeah. My dad has the main user password so he 'restricts' me from logging in after midnight till 9am. What fucking rubbish is that? However I have to contain myself to it cause he thinks being online too much would damage my eyesight,take away my time and has explicit contents that has no filtration. He's forgotten I'm 18. And I already know stuff before I'm  18 and without internet :)




I think I'm done talking. That felt good to be let out. Okay bye :)

Shoutouts :)

Okay. This is how it works. Here's a few messages that I'd like to convey to a few of my loved ones,regardless they read 'em or not. But most of them would, I can tell. Because they just would. At the end of the message is a song dedication to the subject at the moment. For those who are from the third perspective,don't expect to understand what I'm trying to deliver. It's meant for them. By all means, this is how I tell them without telling them. Isn't that why everyone blogs publicly yet writes about anonymous personas? 

Of course you're first. You're on my mind all week. I want you back. The old you. No, I want us back. Do I want to kick your bf's sorry ass? Hell yeah I do. Nothing cant change what happened and so could the old times. But I hope things would brighten up and be as they were again. I just miss you, okay? :(


Here Without You - 3 Doors Down

No,doesnt mean you're any less important eventhough you come second. I just need to write about her first. Anyways, I love our discussion today. It was mature,agreeable and definitely assuring. Now I know.. 

Oh okay nanti I belajar masak sedap sedap for you, you tak sabar kan? HAHA.

Thank you and I love you too :)

Back At One - Shayne Ward

Can I ask for a greater friend than you? I never had anyone that I can talk with on anything and everything before I met you. I'm glad we crossed our paths and be close ever since. Don't go anywhere okay? I can't afford to lose a friend like you. Org atas ni baca neh mampus I haha. But you know what's going on and we both agree to let time decide kan? :)


If I Let You Go - Westlife

As for you, missy. Do take care of yourself. I'm not worried bout you,I'm worried what others would do to you. I'm not advising,I'm asking you to pretty please look after yourself. Cheer up and keep your chin up,babe. Life is a rollercoaster,remember? My shoulder is well reserved for you kalau you nak. Yeah,I'm strong and you ain't heavy :)

Keep Holding On - Avril Lavigne

Dear long lost friend who I've found again,
I'm confused and dumbfounded to be left with your puzzling remarks and no reply for explaination. Yes,I am different. I'm all gronw-up, you see. I'm not the 15 year-old girl you once met. I'm eighteen now, dear. Time has passed and changes could be major so deal with it. How come you would distant yourslef when I only just got you back? What happen to "never lose touch ever again"? I guess I'm not the only one who changes after all.


What Do You Want From Me - Adam Lambert

My good friend who's always been there and comforting to me. I still feel guilty about bailing you hari tu. I'm terribly sorry and I'll make it up to you. I'm trying to find a date for us to hang out and still looking. Hm. I owe you a day and if I lose track, remind me tau sayang. I miss spending time with ya!

Hotel Room Service  No Sleep Tonight - The Faders (taktau apa connection dia,biarlah HAHA)








I don't know how to start. We never spoke since then. We texted right after school ends. When I came back from Jeddah you're going back to your hometown. All I manage to convey are my regards. I just hope you know how sorry I am. Tried chatting at Facebook pun you refused,nampak sangat you aren't ready to forgive. Then fine. I'm done apologising :(


Sorry Seems To Be The Hardest Word - Blue ft. Elton John

I'm not sure if I still have any left to say to you. You're a heartbreaker like no other. And yeah, I'm fucking glad I gave you a damned reason to leave me. If not, I wouldn't know what a jerk you actually are.

"I'm afraid I have to break those promises..."

Those were your words,dammit. It hurts and haunts me that it still lingers in my head now. So this is why now I hate promises and can't believe in them from anyone. Not even from myself. Oh yeah, a dike like you can make an impact on someone's life. Which will soon come back to yours. Good luck & bon voyage,brother.

          All-American Rejects - Gives You Hell 

Happy Birthday Babe :)

AMIRAH AHMAD

is officially 18 years of age, TODAY! :D

[psst! tengok muka blurr dia dalam gambar ni HAHA]

May Allah grants you happiness with beautiful and meaningful blessings in life.

I wish you life longevity,best of health,loyalty of and with Fakhrulwafi Mohd Rosli,more fun ahead and success in everything.

Like I said, things may not seem like it used to, but we will always have each other in time of need and all the memories we created and shared.

I LOVE YOU, you know that. Family Forever :)

Have a great one.

xoxo

Wishing you . . .

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR :)

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY <3

The Day I Felt Eighteen :)

WARNING: This is very detailed and you might get bored. However I love writing and I hope you love reading. Thank you :)

So my day started with Iced Mocha Caramel and Egg Cheese Sandwich at Dunkin Donuts KLCC...Along with four guys,three mugs of hot drinks and a box of doughnuts in front of me. Pergh. Arif A,Izaan Azizan,Irfan Kent and Shahrul R.

I bumped into them in the LRT earlier so why not keep each other company and have breakfast kan? So we did. They were chatting away and I listened. Then Mayo arrived.

Percy Jackson and the Olympians - The Lightning Thief was AMAZING. Only then I recapped the Greek Gods,Hercules and stuff. Zeus,Haedes,Poseidon,demigods? Cool myths. I love Uma Thurman's appearance. The Satyr was funny and Percy Jackson/Logan Lerman is CUTE. Hehe.

Watched this with Mayo and we had a few laughs. It was a bit too loud and a bit too cold. Very weak signals on our phone but despite all that, the movie was worth it :)

On our way heading to Pavillion,we stopped by Memory Lane to grab a card and a gift upon meeting Ruzaini. It's his birthday so why not give him something. Lagipun, Mayo has an affection for him so she doesn't want to greet him empty-handed. I totally agree. Mayo gave me a friendship wallet card. THANK YOU ! but you forgot to sign it, nevertheless I'd always remember who and when the card is from :)

Upon arriving Pavillion, we went straight to the cinemas to wait for Ruzaini. There were a pack of boys we know so we didn't plan to bump into them but alas met Ruzaini and left for Studio R. Mayo's shoes was hurting her so we grabbed a cute pink slip-ons and she's in comfy travelling again.

Had lunch at Dome. Had pasta and Mayo had wedges and mushroom soup. Kak Laila,Mayo's big sis stopped by. Dah lama havent seen her. She was with her boyfie,Abg Azurin. We chatted and chatted and chatted more. I had so many to catch up and and she has plenty to update me. Dah lame tak borak macam tu. Didnt feel like Dome at all, macam kat dorm adalah ;)

Around 3-ish, we were already crossing roads heading Bukit Bintang area. Had fun kat BB Bistro ;) We left light-headedly back to Pavillion and the ladies' room was our first stop. It was already 5 something so we walked back to KLCC. My heart was thumping hard cause Ayah's waiting for me at KL Sentral and I'm still in KLCC!

However I made it anyways to Ayah's office on time. Pheww!

Conclusion. Tiring but fun. Exhausting but worth it.

No AzwAzhr but there's Amirah Mohd Nor :)

Surprise Surprise!

Why is the title 'surprise,surprise'?

It should be "SHOCKING,SHOCKING"!

And so I held my breath and skipped downstairs after watching Glee while my sisters, Salina's on the phone,Tia's ironing her school unis,Nurin's asleep and brother Lutfil was playing Runescape, towards my parents who were chitchatting and having coffee.

And?

Oh I wanted to go for the 'suddenly-joining-in-the-conversation-then-pops-out-can-I-go-out-question' tactic. But it'll be more heartbreaking to handle if I get a no. Say I might as well just ask directly anyways.

So I did.

"It has been 2weeks you tak keluar. So okaylahh. Where to?"

I didnt even have to beg.

"Okay then. Be home by 4.30"

It was too risky to question and negotiate on that either cause I dont wanna loose the kesianla-dia-lama-tak-keluar mood on them. So I said yeay and called him to ask he's permission pulak.

Only then I got to know that he decides to go out jugak the next day with his guy friends. Konon kononnya, "Eh you keluar jugak esok? Nant kite jumpa lah kat mane mane". Nanti buat buat terserempak padahal he was following me in case ada laki lain. HAHA.

I cant wait to lepak lepak with Moy esok. It's been awhile tak jumpa. She's gonna think I literally stuffed myself! After two months badan naik gila. Haha. Nak potong rambut, but Moy trimmed hers recently so takkan nak bore her kat saloon tu. I guess tunggu Salina cuti then or I'll go with him on our next date hehe ;)

So nak tengok bola jap then wait for him to text then off to bed.

Go LIVERPOOL!! Come on Torres,Gerard... you can do it sayangs :)

Bye bloggie :)

I Can't Wait! :D

I am SO looking forward to this movie. Not only because it has Taylor Swift and Taylor Lautner in it, it's because I just love movies with variations of intertwining situations in one movie. Malay movies like Cinta or Sepi has this kind of plot or style. It features the perspective or differentiation in between multiple ages. Plus it's romantic! I hope I can watch it with my boyfriend; present or future. With girlfriends pun tak salah kan? :)

The director of this flick is Gary Marshall.

This movie stars Julia Roberts,Bradley Cooper,Jessica Biel,Jamie Foxx,Ashton Kutcher,Patrick Dempsey,Eric Dane,Emma Roberts,Carter Jenkins,Taylor Lautner,Taylor Swift,Jessica Alba,Anne Hathaway,Jennifer Garner,Queen Latifah,Topher Grace,Joe Jonas ( as the voice of Jessica Alba's dog haha! ).

It's due to be released in February 2010 :)

A Memorable... Test?

The test I'm referring to is the computer test on the road legals which I've to take in order to obtain L license. It was promised to the students that it'll take only 45minutes, or less, to sit for the exams. Or so I thought.

"Datang sini sebelum pukul 9pagi ye dikk.."

So 8.30am I was already on the roads heading IMKEDA Centre in AU3,Ampang. My heartbeat was racing cause I didnt think I did much revision. Huh.

"Senang je, serious. Whatever you heard during the ceramah was enough."

"Sambil korek hidung pun boleh jawab."

"Bace soalan betul betul tau."

"Semua orang lulus, mesti kacang punye lah."

These remarks DONT calm me down. It's freaking me out thinking what will become of me if I fail! My friends would ridicule me to death! And my pocket money will be RM40 short :(

As I reach there, I got my book out and reread. Yeah, RE- read. Haha skema.

Saw Arep. He's waiting for his turn to practise driving.

Was texting Ilani and you-know-who. He woke early just to bagi semangat. Boyfriend TERBAIK :)

It was already 9.50am and all of us were still waiting around.

Sedar sedar I'm in a van with another 9 persons and arriving someplace somewhere. Whoa.

The noisy giliran board showed 024. And my turn was 056. Ugh. This is torturous, I thought.

It's 10.20am and I havent sat for the bloody test. Oh get on with it, shit. Huh.

So I passed. Big deal. Memang tak susah pun. But I scored 45/50, which my friends scored 47 or 48. Dont they have anything else to generate brain cells for? I've like world issues to think of. As if those top-scorers have only road legals lingering their minds.

When I walked in, there's this big signage showing NO roundnecks; only collars for men, NO shorts; skirts or pants, NO jamban slippers and NO spaghetti straps either. It's suppose to be some kind of ethic. So it's clearly understood and by far respectable to me.

I am dumbfounded to observe the government servants who work in the office. Mak aih, skirt short habis. High heels 5inches kot. Makeup setebal tebal, kalah Tyra Banks. Sign kat luar tadi boleh dispense and my respect of the ethics pun dah disperse! Tu baru imej, dahla garang hell. Rude. Snobbish. Never make eye contact and layan orang macam dia buat kerja free, padahal everyone there paid big buffalos for the stupid test! Macam la bagus sangat. Nenek aku pun lagi cun and polite. Buat rosak mood orang pagi pagi je. Damn it.

Roslyn,Nurul Iman,Tengku Farhanah and I were at Al-Malek. Yes,kedai mamak. Atas meja there's an empty 100Plus can,4 glasses that were before filled with teh ais(mine and Roslyn's) and 2 steel trays that was served as thosai disguised as roti canai. Huh.

Cukuplah myeg workers tu celaka. Now PakCik Imkeda is 3 hours late?? Adoyai, what kind of a bad day are we stuck in? Iqbal called the pakcik again and hence he answers,"Korang balik sendirilahh..". Memang fucked up. Grrr.

So after Iman's mum picked her up,Farhanah's brother came to the rescue and offered to send us to Imkeda Center balik. We booked our next session instead of complaining and exploding cause we run out of enthusiasm for self-defense. Malassss nak layan. Huh. That's my fourth sigh.

Nevertheless, I'm very grateful that I have Roslyn,Iqbal,Iman and Farhanah to fill my day with laughter,experience-swapping,jokes and opinion-sharing time rather than being aggresive,grumpy and bored to max out of the this 'challenging' day. I'm sure they feel the same :)

Thank God for Facebook and adorable pakcik that litterally gave us a chance to mingle. If we have to take it that way. Haha.

With that said, now you know my memorable test ;)